ave moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be… quite fair. I won’t
contest your decision. So don’t try to spare my feelings, please– tell me now whether or
not you can still love me, after I’ve done to you. Can you?” he whispered.
“What kind of an idiotic question is that?”
“Just answer it. Please.”
I stared at him darkly for a long moment. “The way I feel about you will never change. Of
course I love you–and there’s nothing you can do about it!”
“That’s all I needed to hear.”
His mouth was on mine then, and I couldn’t fight him. Not because he was so many
thousand times stronger than me, but because my will crumbled into dust the second our lips
met. This kiss was not quite as careful as others I , which suited me just fine. If I
was going to rip myself up further, I might as well get as much in trade as possible.
So I kissed him back, my heart pounding out a jagged, rhythm while my breathing
turned to panting and my fingers moved greedily to his face. I could feel his marble body
against every line of mine, and I was so glad he hadn’t listened to me–there was no pain in
the world that would have justified missing this. His hands memorized my face, the same
way mine were tracing his, and, in the brief seconds when his lips were free, he whispered
When I was starting to get dizzy, he pulled away, only to lay his ear against my heart.
I lay there, dazed, waiting for my gasping to slow and quiet.
“By the way,” he said in a casual tone. “I’m not leaving you.”
I didn’t say anything, and he seemed to hear in my silence.
He lifted his face to lock my gaze in his. “I’m not going anywhere. Not without you,” he
added more seriously.
“I only left you in the first place because I wanted you to have a chance at a normal, happy,
human life. I could see what I was doing to you–keeping you on the edge of
danger, taking you away from the world you belonged in, risking your life every moment I
was with you. So I had to try. I had to do something, and it seemed like leaving was the only
way. If I hadn’t thought you would be better off, I could have never made myself leave. I’m
much too selfish. Only you could be m